The Kelsey's: Lonely

The first couple of weeks that Dusty had been living in Nevada things felt a little easier. By easier I mean that my house was easier to keep clean, I didn't ever have to worry about his schedule changing and how it would effect B and I in our daily lives. Things were pretty simple. As time went on though I realized how bored I am. I realize how quiet my house has become and lonely I am. B really misses her Daddy and clings to him when he comes home, I do the same thing, we are both fighting for his attention because soon it will be gone and every thing goes back to quiet, boring, nothing to do days. I'm tired of going to bed alone every single night, I'm tired of being the only person around to raise B. I'm tired of not having someone here to comfort me when I am feeling depressed. I hate to sound so down when there are soldiers that are overseas for a year or more at a time who have families back home, at least I get to see my husband every couple of weeks. Talking to him on the phone has been nice, but as time has gone on we have run out things to say to each other. It feels as if we are growing apart in some way. Hurts my feelings. I want my best friend back, I want to try for another baby and not have to worry if he will be home when I need him to. I want to not have to drive to Battle freaking Mountain and stay in his trailer just so I can be with him during the week. These are all things that I hate with him working in another state....I am however, so thankful that in the economy he has a job, a great job that provides for our family and lets me be a stay at home mom. I'm thankful that my husband has sacrificed so much for his family just to make sure that we have a roof over our head, food in our mouths, and money to spend. He is the most hard-working man I have ever met and he does it without complaining. I know it can't be easy for him to be in another state without his family, but he stays strong for us. He keeps positive for us. What an amazing man Dusty has turned out to be! I love him so much and my love grows for him each and everyday!

I know that one day I will look back and say "That was a rough time in our lives, but look at us now, stronger than ever before!" I know this won't last forever and for that I am thankful.

I love you so much Dusty! You are the best father and husband I could have ever asked for! Thank you so much for the things you do for our little family, we appreciate it more than you will ever know.