Well I guess it is time to try and blog again among other things in our life. BraeLynn is almost 3! I can't believe that I will have a 3 year old come December 15. She is growing like a weed and has the most adorable personality ever! (I'm sure all Mom's feel the same about their kids). Dusty is living in Battle Mountain, Nevada for Ames Construction doing what he has always done-Crusher Maintenance. They are currently working at a mine called Newmont. He loves what he does but hates being so far away from home. He left the end of July and I am feeling a little guilty when I say it doesn't feel like he has been gone very long. He gets to come home every couple of weeks for a few days at time. Last time he was here was the very last week in October and he will be home again the week of Thanksgiving.
As for me, I am now a stay at home mom and go to school at nights. I am hoping to be enrolled at Provo College in January for my RN. It has been a long time coming that I get this done as soon as possible so that Dusty and I will be able to live together as a family should. Honestly I am very nervous about taking the plunge into nursing school, it will be a very long, hard, stressful 20 months! I know it will be so worth it when all said and done, but thinking about being extremely busy has me scared out of my mind! I love being home with B all day every day, nursing school will completely tear me away from her, and with Dusty not living here I will have to rely on my family or his family to help take care of her. I hate feeling that I need to rely on someone else to take care of MY child. I guess I need to get over my fears and just take the plunge and get it over with now!!
Dusty and I have been trying to have another baby since February, obviously we aren't having very much luck in that department. It's not because he hasn't been home either. I have been taking OPK's every month and since February have had 2 positive results, one in March--which I refused to take advantage of! (I do not want another December baby, one is enough for that month!) and the other was in October, luckily Dusty was home that weekend, but it just so happens that it did not work regardless of the positive result. After calling my Dr. and being very upset about B turning 3 and not pregnant with another baby, he asked me if I had been tracking my cycles, well of course I have! I am on a 32 cycle, which apparently if your cycle is longer than 28 days the chance you ovulate each month is slim to none. Wish I would have known that months ago! Anyways, he decided to put me on a fertility drug called Clomid which helps induce ovulation. It does not ensure pregnancy which has me a little worried, but it works. Not to mention that you have a higher chance of having multiple births! I am okay with one or more, at this point I don't even care! I just want another baby to hold, to have in my home and for B to have a younger brother or sister to eventually be close with and have a special relationship that I have with my siblings. I never wanted my kids to be 4+ years apart, so I have told Dusty that after the second child we will not wait as long for a third. That made him a little nervous, but he agreed! He says after 3 kids we are finished....how can he be sure we are finished after 3? Thinking about no more kids at a certain point gives me anxiety! I love babies and love my babies even more, why quit having the most adorable kids in the world?
Hopefully I will have some good news here in the next month!
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