Hormones

I am absolutely f-ing crazy! I have had a few people tell me that clomid made them loose their minds...I thought that can't be possible, it's just a small pill that you take for 5 days and be on your merry little way....Ya well apparently the crazy bitch doesn't come out to play till day 6...I have been extremely edgy all day and have snapped at the smallest things that would have never bothered me before. I have been so mad at my husband for having a friend over after he got off work so that talking to me on the phone was happening later than I wanted it to....mind you I couldn't even talk to him anyways because I was at school, either way I flipped....told him to stay in Nevada for the holidays, not to come home, that I wanted a divorce and never wanted to talk to him again....basically all the crazy things that you can think of I said and did! OH MY HELL.....I hate to blame it on clomid, but I feel like I just had an out of body experience and I am not sure if I can come back from this. My husband told me that if the drugs were going to make me act this way that we were done taking them. That if I don't get pregnant this time around that we will just have to try with out drugs and see what happens.  I see exactly why he wants me to stay off these drugs, he is walking on egg shells every time he talks to me on the phone.  He doesn't know what to say in fear that he is going to say the wrong thing. Poor guy doesn't even live with me and he is this terrified. Maybe its a good thing he isn't home for this!

As soon as I hung up the phone (still hysterically crying) I stared at my phone, thought to myself "you have lost your mind, what just happened? None of what happened makes any freaking sense!" I instantly quit crying and feel like everything is fine.... I feel just fine, same old me. Excited to try for another baby, excited to have my husband home for the holidays, I feel great.....but ten minutes ago I was a freaking train wreck!

I have a lot of apologizing to do.  I have some making up to do! He does not deserve to see this side of me that not even I have seen! HA! I am dying of laughter that I have just acted like a 13 year old little girl! Wow.....

Fair warning to any of you who might think of taking clomid....YOU WILL ACT CRAZY AT SOME POINT WHILE TAKING THIS DRUG! You better let your husbands know what will happen for no apparent reason. If they don't believe it will make you loose your mind, just have them call my husband....I think I have scared him to the point he wants to stay in BM Nevada!

Other than the psycho coming out, I really hope this drug does what it is supposed to do and I do become pregnant this month!